Whoa- it seems like I've been on hiatus lately. My never-ended vacation home has been quite the roller-coaster ride, first going 90 mph trying to fit everyone and everything in, and now, not being able to stop! I tried to return back to Peru with my sister in tow on Thursday, just to get stuck in Miami for a lovely lunch and 17 hours of waiting!!!!! It turns out flying standby is not always a blessing and not always worth the cheaper ticket. However, I did manage to turn some of those 17 hours into QT with my sister who lives on the other side of the world in the Middle East. It was like an Emily and Kelly retreat, except not in the classiest of places. As the days go by, the flights still being booked solid and the cost of buying a ticket through the roof, I find my faith being tested pretty heavily. The flight situation is not the only thing weighing heavily on me- my dad is also in the hospital for unknown reasons. He developed major pounding migraines for a week followed by nausea and flu-like symptoms and no one can figure anything out. His tests are all coming out normal. They are investigating a spider bite on his foot which is red and swollen. It's frustrating to feel so helpless in both situations. I find myself craving my routine and things I can control. I miss the kids, the volunteers, and my flow there. I feel like my life was interrupted and I need to get back to it. one thing I'm immensely enjoying here are my daily dog walks. I love the quiet time (minus the panting of a hot dog in a black fur coat!) for thinking, meditating, praying, feeling, and just claiming solitude and silence. One thing I noticed with coming back to America from Peru is that our world is SO LOUD! It can totally consume you if you let it! Last year, I wrote these lyrics to a song:
"Why is it so hard to be silent? To breathe in Your presence and let You speak to my soul? The world is so very loud-it's spinning in circles and you can't hear a sound. Life-giving are your words Oh Lord...if only we make time to seek and find."
I hope you will take a few minutes of silence to listen to God whispering to you. The last few days I have been able to slow down a bit more and come to accept God's perfect timing. He knows what I need and He is in control so why should I worry or freak out? One of my favorite scripture verses will always be Proverbs 3:5. It shows up when I need it the most--I ran into again yesterday. "Trust in the Lord with ALL your heart and lean not on your own understanding." I'm silent and listening.
What has kept me entertained these last 3 weeks:
Playing with my nieces
Play time with my friends
Maid of Honor duties
For this BEAUTIFUL bride!
I've enjoyed every minute!
